Saturday, May 29, 2010


darling you have yet to hold me close
during the war, with your heart
i can see strait down your crooked teeth
you feel so dumb, mouth open large
you've got exactly what I'm drinking for

darling you can bet to see my ghost
up on the wall watching you eat
yeah its true i dream about you two
grinding my mouth losing my teeth
you are exactly what a night-mares for.
i'll night marry you.

skipper i can barely swab the deck,
slipping around on fishes bones
commonly i write more than i speak
about our love with sticks and stones
i've seen you cast away this cast before
and your casting spells again

doctor I've got bandages and bloods
places underneath my minute gun
finally the funeral unique
to all my sins, there all long gone
they are exactly what this crying is for
they are exactly what this dying is for
you are exactly what I'm dying for

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

006

We drank each others blood
like a cheap red wine
We didn't stop
until you got cold and I felt old
We got lost in my mind
and found ourselves in your soul
We got tangled in this mess
and pulled at our heartstrings
We lost all sense of time
and knew that everything was fine

005

I felt that audible cry
come from deep within your eyes
and your heart was pleading
for one more gorgeous day...
though I am ten thousand
feet above the ground
and though lightning fights
against these wings
I took the ribbon that you tied
to my voice last night
and held on for dear life
knowing it would one day
lead me home to you.

Monday, May 17, 2010

Friday, May 14, 2010


MY HERO!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

And I Felt Love Again

This is a short story I just finished writing. It is based around a dream I had about a week ago.

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The lights were turned down low over the bar in the smoke filled room. Joe and I leaned back, took long steady drags of our Newports and even longer sips of our rum and cokes.
Something was on Joe's mind; I could tell by the way he gazed blankly at the bottles on the shelf behind the bar. I also knew that something troubled him because that's the only time he ever goes to the tavern, and I'm always the one with him here during these times, which are few and far between.
More than half of the times I met him there he wouldn’t say more than ten words the full three or more hours we were there. His silence never did sit well with me, I usually wouldn't ever pester him about what was on his mind but today his silence was deafening.
Taking another drag of the cigarette, the smoke wafting out as I spoke, "So, you going to tell me what's on your mind or no?" I asked, glancing over at him out of the corner of my eye.
Breaking his staring contest with the alcohol bottles to look at me briefly and then turning his attention to the drink in his hand, he sighed loudly, and began to ramble. "I don't really know dude, I mean, I do....but I can't exactly say for sure. I just have...this feeling, and it’s stronger than anything I have ever felt before. It’s like you have a dream that you’re so certain is real because of its intensity and then you wake up and your more confused by the feeling your left with than the dream its self. You know?" he said, lighting another cigarette.
I was completely baffled by the length of his answer. "Yeah, I know the feeling, but what's it got to do with this?" I asked as I took another sip, peering over the rim of the glass.
"I can't say quite yet, I don't want it to be a 'too soon kind of situation' ya know?" He said, looking around at anything but me.
"Hmmm....yeah" I said and left it at that.
We sat there for several minutes, keeping the river of intoxication flowing into our veins. Joe sat there in his silence while I made small talk about sports with the bar tender. Eventually he got up from his bar stool and staggered over to the juke box. He fed five dollars in, picked a few songs, and lazily wandered back to the stool where we continued to sit in silence.
In the back of my mind and on the tip on my tongue were unspoken prayers to an unknown god for my friend Joe. I felt like a horrible hypocrite but I didn't really care because I was so severely frightened by his state of being that I felt something needed to be said someone out there on his behalf.
Just I as I finished pleading, a group of twenty-something year old college kids walked in and the faint sound of the music coming from the jukebox was consumed by the dull roar of chatter coming from the group. Today was the last day for finals at the local community college and they we all out to celebrate the end of the semester.
As the minuets flowed steadily into hours Joe and I watched the students’ party the night away, and several times we exchanged glances, chuckled at the thought of the armatures throwing their caution to the wind and the amount of regret that they would be feeling in the morning. After about three hours the group left for another bar and we were once again the only patrons in the bar.
The bartender, Anthony, and high school friend of ours began to wipe down tables and turn off the neon signs hanging in the windows that indicated the bar was still open. At this late hour neither Joe, Anthony, nor myself expected any one to walk into this out of the way bar that was being shut down for the night so we all whipped out heads around when we heard the door creaking open. Joe and I, being well past the point of intoxication, had to take a moment to focus our eyes to see who was walking in and if we knew them. Anthony on the other hand, sober as a bird, recognized her right away.
“Hello Elise, long time no see.” Anthony said as he smiled and went back to cleaning the tables off.
“Hey.” She said, half heartedly.
Elise, Joe’s girlfriend of four years and my younger sister, never came to the bar. Ever. With her arrival my suspicions that something was wrong were confirmed and my anxiety grew exponentially. As she walked over to us and she swam into better focus I could clearly see was distraught, eyes puffy and mascara running from crying. When Joe realized her emotional state as well, he stood up and reached out to hold her hand although in his face and eyes there wasn’t so much as a flinch or any change from how he had been all night long. When their eyes met, they held each other’s gaze for several long moments. No one said a word. Even the jukebox seemed to take the hint and quietly fade out.
Eventually her eyes broke away from his; she looked down at the floor and moved her foot around an invisible circle. His stare remained unchanged. A few seconds later she began to speak. Joe, I have something I need to tell...” but she was quickly interrupted by Joe.
“I already know.” He said softly, pulling her closer.
“What? How could you possibly…” again, she was interrupted.
“I just do. And its okay I’m not worried about it.”
“But how?”
Finally he blinked, a glossiness in his eyes was reflected by what lighting there was, and I could tell he was holding back tears. Sixteen years I have known Joe and never once have I ever seen or heard of him crying. Their eyes met once again and she began to weep, not out of sadness but of joy for the understanding that Joe seemed to have. Joe smiled at Elise, she smiled back. He pulled her in closer to him and wrapped his arms around her.
Then, leaning back and kissing her on the cheek he said “The Lord showed me dreams of my daughter, she was crying inside your stomach.” She smiled even bigger and cried even harder.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Built Then Burn (Hurrah! Hurrah!)





Dear Brothers and Sisters!
Dear Enemies and Friends!
Why are we all so alone here?
All we need is a little more hope, a little more joy
All we need is a little more light, a little less weight, a little more freedom
If we were an army, and if we believed that we were an army
And we believed
That everyone was scared
Like little lost children in their grown up clothes and poses
So we ended up alone here
Floating through long wasted days
Or great tribulations
While everything felt wrong

Good words
Strong words
Words that could've moved mountains
Words that no one ever said
We were all waiting to hear those words
And no one ever said them
And the tactics never hatched.
And the plans were never mapped.
And we all learned not to believe.
And strange lonesome monsters loafed through the hills
wondering why
And it is best to never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever wonder why

So tangle; Oh tangle us up in bright red ribbons!
Let's have a parade
It's been so long since we had a parade
So let's have a parade
Let's invite all our friends
And all our friends' friends
Let's promenade down the boulevards
With terrific pride
And light in our eyes
Twelve feet tall and staggering!
Sick with joy
With the angels there
And light in our eyes
Brothers and Sisters
Hope still waits in the wings
Like a bitter spinster
Impatient
Lonely
And shivering
Waiting to build her glorious fires.
I's because of our plans man;
Our beautiful ridiculous plans!
Let's launch them like careening jet planes!
Let's crash all our planes in the river!
Let's build strange and radiant machines
At this Jericho waiting to fall