Powders & Poisons

I've been awake for days on end

Putting shit up my nose

Trying desperately to keep the anxiety at bay

Avoiding this nightmare you call life

Trying not to let the sadness in

But its everywhere I look

Its in everything I see

And when sleep finally comes

All I see are demons

Every time I close my eyes

It just stirs up white noise

Stirs up too many memories

Memories of Rhonda

Of Rhonda and myself

Of another time and place

Another life

But that life has dissipated

And now I am left with nothing

Left to fill the space you left

With powders and poisons

And now there's nothing left

And now I am nothing.